Most of you that read this know how the story goes. On September 9th, 2010 I delivered my son, Andrew, at 16weeks. After much grieving I knew that I wanted another baby and was praying that I would be pregnant again before Andrew's due date which was in February 2011. My prayer was answered when I had a positive pregnancy test on New Year's Day 2011. We were anxious but excited that we would still have our kiddos close in age. Again the story turns south when we found out our precious Abigail was gone at 16 weeks. She was delivered on March 31, 2011.
At first I said that I needed the rest of the year to process and give my body a break, but as time went on that hole that was left in my heart was starting to ache. I wanted another baby!! Abigail's due date and Andrew's birthday passed. Still not pregnant!! And now, here I am at Olivia's birthday. She is turning two and I never in a million years thought I would make it to this point and not be pregnant again. I was pregnant three times in the first 14 months of Olivia's life ( I had one early miscarriage before Andrew when Olivia was 4 months old). How could I not get pregnant in the last 8 months?? It seemed to easy before!
Rest assured that I know God has a plan for my life; it just doesn't look the way I thought it would. I pray every day to wait patiently on His timing; fully aware that means I may never carry another child in my womb. No matter how much I want to deny the upcoming birthday of my precious toddler, I know she is still turning two and I know that whatever God has in store for our family it will be good!! He is the giver of all good gifts!