Wednesday, January 4, 2012

To the Attic it Goes

Today was a pretty sad day for me...I finally put all the baby stuff away in the attic.  I know it doesn't really seem drastic but I have kept the baby stuff up in Olivia's room since she was done with it.  Since I was pregnant three times in the first 18 months of her life I thought I would be needing it again very soon.  But, most of you know the story of our precious angels.

For me, now was the time to let go and just wait patiently for what the Lord has for us.  It was time to stop holding on to the idea that "next month will be the month."  It was time to stop tripping over the swing, carseat, stroller, and boxes of clothes and blankets. It's time to live in the "now" and focus on the three blessings I have living under my roof.

If I learned anything from a year and a half of infertility (before Olivia) it's that the Lord will bless in His timing and in His way.  Quite possibly the blessing will not come when or how I expect.  BUT....He is faithful to comfort, and fill my life with Him.

In pastures green?  Not always; sometimes He who knowest best, in kindness leadeth me in weary ways, where heavy shadows be.  So, whether on the hilltops high and fair I dwell, or in the sunless valleys, where the shadows lie, what matter?  He is there.

When nothing on which to lean remains,
When strongholds crumble to dust;
When nothing is sure but that God still reigns,
That is just the time to trust.

1 comment:

  1. Oh sweetie. :( I have been there too - not exactly the same circumstance of course. When I realized I could not have more children and finally put away/gave away/sold the baby stuff, it was really hard. Then I realized I could hang pictures of the kids and they were going to STAY that way! And started finding other nice things about it too. I hope you can find the same. And keep the faith. :)